December92010
Take two.
I am dedicating 8 weeks, to soul searching and to me.
To start with I am revisiting this list/guide to soul searching:
1. Count your blessings. One way to do this is with a “gratitude journal” in which you write down 3 to 5 things for which you are currently thankful…
2. Practice acts of kindness…
3. Savor Life’s Joys…
4. Thank a mentor…
5. Learn to forgive…
6. Invest Time and Energy in Friends and Family…
7. Take care of your body… Getting plenty of sleep, exercising, stretching, smiling and laughing can all enhance your mood in the short term. Practiced regularly, they can help make your daily life more satisfying.
8. Develop strategies for coping with stress and hardship…
I think that these are all things that are not going to impact me negatively to try…
I think that realising the things that I have to be thankful for is really grounding, and I am going to keep doing that :)
As for step 2, random acts of kindness aye?
Let’s see what happens there.
September202010
I am thankful that the connection I have with my music can take me to all corners of the universe when I close my eyes.
It has the ability to calm me, anger me, excite me and motivate me.
There is no greater feeling than standing in a crowd with my arms in the air, my eyes closed, and singing along to a song that is making me feel like I’m flying.
8AM
I start questioning what is even here that is worth staying for… little glimpes of gold pop up.
I want to travel. I need to.
Now is the perfect time. No boyfriend, no ties. No amazing job that I wouldn’t want to risk losing a career for.
I’m young, healthy and the world is my oyster.
So why don’t I just go?
September112010
Had a really good night last night !
Feeling absolutely rotten today though…
September72010
how amazingly cute is my dog in the picture a few posts previous!?
7AM
When you think about your own life in the big picture of things, we seem so small. I can go on living my day to day existance and be completely oblivious to the world around me and the fact that other people are not nearly as fortunate as I am.
A regular morning for me could involve the following…
Wake up at 7am for work. It’s so early and I don’t want to get out of my warm bed to go to work. I drive to work in the city and I’m stuck in peak hour traffic. The breakfast radio teams keep playing adds and all I wanna hear is some good tunes. I get to work, there’s no milk left in the fridge for a coffee. Awesome. Have to walk over to the coffee club. I spend the day trapped in front of a computer answering emails, and on the phone all day.
These are just tiny minor things that I let wear me down, and unmotivate me.
When the fact is, my warm bed? There are 100million people without a house or bed to keep warm and to sleep in every night around the world. Being stuck in peak hour traffic in my car is nothing compared to walking for 10 hours straight in scorching heat without shoes to get water or basic food. Some places in the world have such high censorship laws and practices that music is not even allowed… I have the priviledge of being able to work for a living and support myself. I can choose who I want to be and what I want to become. I am educated, safe, and don’t have to worry about nearly as many things as some people do in the world.
The freedom I have living in Australia allows me to live the amazing life that I do. And it’s easy to forget just how lucky I actually am.
My freedom is my most valuable asset in life.
7AM
So things with (him) didn’t work out as I’d hoped. I let myself get carried away.
Back on my soul searching mission.
I go from days where I’m totally happy with who I am and where I’m going, perfectly content.
But then there’s ‘those’ days.
It’s like I don’t even need for there to be another variable involved for me to still feel heartbroken. Why???
I have everything in the world to be thankful and grateful for.
And I want to start actually thinking about it and processing that. Everyday.
Starting now I’m going to remind myself of all the reasons I should be happy.
7AM
Answer: The act of facing one’s inmost self with courage, determined to bring every ulterior thought, emotion, and motive to light.Wow.How can I get from here to there asap?
