soul searching part 1
So I’ve been hanging out on my own a lot more. Well, not so much my own. But only epople that I see as a friend. Trying to keep the boys sitcho quiet.
And I’m not really sure what the result is yet? It’s kinda bothering me, thats all so far. I haven’t realised anything.
I haven’t learnt anything.
And I haven’t figured out what I wanna do yet.
This is very unmotivating and unconvincing.
So far I’ve only thought of a few things and they’re really shit things anyway. They’re not the things I wanna hear….
Lets call one boy, boy A. I really enjoy spending time with him, and we click so well. Great chemistry, great conversation… But it’s gotta be the worst feeling in the world thinking he probably wants nothing to do with me, but is too polite to tell me. I need to be let down hard and firm.
Yep.
So this is pretty much all I have taken away from my first episode of soul searching… I think I need to research what exactly is involved in this ‘soul searching’ craze… because maybe I’m doing it wrong ?
